I will be sharing some devotions with you that my sister Nancy has been writing. I pray the Lord bless and encourage you through these testimonies and instruction from The Word of God... P.D.
Title: Down…but not Out!
Acts 17:27 God did this so that they would seek him and perhaps reach out for Him and find Him; though He is not far away from any one of us.
I woke up bright and early Sunday morning planning to shower and get dressed for worship; and found myself in the valley of despair. Just hit me like a ton of bricks! I’d had it with “aloneness”. The feeling of abandonment started to creep into my unprotected heart. I was so sad. Everything I wanted to do just left me in a puddle of tears. And those tears, begat more tears. My goodness, I know that there are millions of others going through this challenge alone. Why, today, the Sabbath, am I so depressed? Well I gave into it. I didn’t get out of bed right away; the blanket came up over my head. I didn’t go downstairs to turn on the TV or my phone to watch any of the four different services that I usually do. And…the pit just got darker and deeper.
Finally, in the afternoon, I sought my various devotionals and the title of the first was “Beyond your Sadness”…Hello!!
“The Lord is close to the brokenhearted, He rescues those whose spirits are crushed” Psalm 34:18
I read that this is the time that I’ve really got to watch over my heart with all diligence, for from it flow the springs of life. I wanted comfort, but felt I had no one to turn to. I wondered what is my life going to be like moving forward? Pain quickly opens the many doors to all the “what ifs” that the evil one can throw at us to push us into gloom and depression. I felt the need to stay in the pain and cry until there were no more tears, just to try to make myself feel better! Really? I was resisting the comfort of Jesus because it wasn’t what I wanted…I just wanted a hug!! I just wanted to be loved for who I am!! But, I’m also hiding from love, building defenses against it, fortressing myself from being hurt again. Was I pushing the Great Comforter away?? Was I pushing away the One that loves me most?
Today, I’m much better. I know that God is in all the things I love…music, books, coffee, sunshine; He is in all creation and I can find Him there. He’s in that pillow that I’ve hugged so much. I may have been down, but not for the count. As long as I chose to seek the Lord before I head down that rabbit hole, I’ll be just fine!
PRAY: Dear Lord, your Word says that things may be difficult, that there will be challenges, but I always have a reason to hope. I know that I can trust you to always be working on my behalf. You have given me a great life that you want me to enjoy thoroughly. Each day, help me stay on the path to fill my mind with positive thoughts, knowing that you love me. Amen